So it's Christmas time! Not really feeling it which isn't normal for me . I love Christmas but this year it just seems to be overwhelming me. I think the body can only handle so much whether it's good or bad . I have been procrastinating doing anything and yet at the same time I know this is my first Christmas with my granddaughter ..... That is fun .... Just the energy levels,the pain, the stress of the surgery seems to press down like a weight . I get up and think ok today I will decorate, or shop, or wrap then I sit down and it doesn't happen!!!!!! Well the universe has conspired to make me move :)
God intervened through those around me:
A good friend helped me finish a special gift which started me looking forward to the season. Then a friend gave me a very nice gift to share with my family . So again, I am being directed towards the Christmas spirit. Then I lost the gift :(. I searched, retraced steps, prayed to St. Anthony (the patron saint of lost things) , then finally let it go .... No point obsessing over it .... It's gone . Two days later another friend comes to me and says "look what I found". There in her hand is my lost gift. The story of it coming into her hands is bizarre but suffice it to say ..... It was a miracle .... A Christmas miracle. Then, a friend decides to visit and while here convinces me to haul out a few decorations, put up a small tree and VOILA.. I am inspired! So Christmas will take place this year and I will participate ..... Sometimes you just need a little divine intervention through the love and kindness of friends .
I am still tired and overwhelmed about the future, but for the next little while I will live in the moment and enjoy the season ..... Count my blessings and find joy in what today has to offer.
I am a very blessed woman in so many ways :)