Post surgical problems........

I don't usually vent to blatantly but tonight I can't help it......This is a quick post for all those people out there that have had any surgery on your bowel.....it sucks sometimes.   My surgeon told me that the bowel is not a very forgiving organ....it doesn't like to be played with....and he was right.    The only problem is no one tells you that the situation gets worse over time after surgery and chemo not better.   There are days when I just want to scream and the past few weeks have been like that.   I am suffering at night and can't seem to eat anything these days..the upside of course is I look thinner than ever....the down side is that no matter what I put in my mouth I feel awful later.   I am never quite sure if it is actually my stomach, bowel or gall bladder, but no matter that part of my body is not my friend these days.

Just wanted to do a quick vent before I went to bed.......knowing it is going to be another rough night.....sure I am not the only  one!!!!!

Not a good time lately.....

So, have made it through another week.   That in itself should be considered a miracle.   Life is so tenuous that making it from one day to the next is often nothing short of miraculous.  We don't often think of life as that precious in our affluent society.  Many societies have a much better appreciation of how precarious life is, and they tend to know what is really important and what isn't.  Often, it is said that in order to know what is important in your life, watch at see what makes you angry.......now that is a very good measure of how you are doing in life.   If its the untangling of Christmas lights, or the bad job your housekeeper did, maybe you need a lesson in gratitude....if that is all you have to complain about I think maybe you despterately need a life.   I sound short, but that is because my life at the moment is not going the way I would like it to go, and that makes me angry, and I guess a little jealous of those who 'seem' to be doing better.   That is not a fair judgement though b/c we all have crosses to bear some are just more obvious than others.....

Biblo had her surgery yesterday, and I am gratful that all went will, but still a little pissed that it happened at all.   Tomorrow is my turn.   I see the doctors and determine when I will be having surgery.   Honestly, I would rather be doing anything else at this time in my life but I guess somethings are just not in my control.    The one good thing about all this is,  I will hopefully come out of the surgery without any pain in my hip and leg and actually be able to finally get a good nights sleep.   So off we go on another journey with this damn cancer.   

I probably shouldn't have written today because I am anything but in a good mood.   I must say though, I am grateful for the people in my life and my faith and don't know how I would make it without both.  So in the midst of all this other crap I am still able to glimpse the good stuff....and that is always important.......life is better than the alternative!!!!!! :)