I wrote this sometime ago but felt it very much applied to what I have been trying to feel these past weeks. It hasn't been easy but there is a truth in trying to live in this attitude. It was good to be reminded that I have struggled before and overcome it, so perhaps this time will be similar. If not then at least I haven't wasted today.
Originally posted in December 2010:
It is very good to take time and recognize the blessings that we have been given. Even if it is only to be able to rise from our beds and walk to the kitchen. Or put our coat and boots on and go for a walk in the evening mist. Often these things seem so natural, that we forget that some no longer have that ability. To take a simple walk, eat a good meal, or spend a few hours without any form of pain or discomfort, that alone is gift. I know that I have struggles ahead and perhaps even challenges that I don't want to face, but today, I am fine. Today, I can look after myself, participate in the daily grind of living without too much discomfort. Today, I will enjoy the simple things in my life and not worry about what might come later on. Today is all that really counts because in the end none of us is guaranteed tomorrow. I will go with how I feel today and live that to the fullest. Tomorrow will take care of itself, and yesterday is gone. Thank you God for the gifts of today, and for the awareness to appreciate them and to use them to their full potential. Bless all those who have less than myself, and may they find peace and some joy amidst their pain and suffering. Bless those who minister to loved ones in their illness, may peace surround them during this difficult time. And most of all allow all to rest and regenerate so that tomorrow may bring some form of hope for a future!