Monday, February 6, 2012

Saying Goodbye......

Its a sad time right now.  I am having to say good bye to someone that I have known since childhood.   We were not what I would call good friends although there were times over the years when we were closer than others.   It just makes me sad to realize that sometimes we don't appreciate the time we have as much as we should.   I could have been a better friend, I could have been more present but I wasn't.  Now it is too late.

I have had the opportunity the past couple of days to talk with others that knew him in school as well.  It is interesting what others have to say and the memories that they share of the person.   I wish we could all be a bit more loving and giving, and then maybe at times like these there wouldn't be any regrets.  It is amazing how each person in our life, no matter how insignificant the relationship may seem, connects us to others.   These past few days have allowed me to talk with people I haven't spoken with in years and yet we share a past that no one else in my life at this time has any idea of.    We have the good, the bad, the ugly memories of growing up, of the cruelness of childhood, the laughs and the blessings too.
Of how we affected people and how we have grown into better hopefully more loving people.

I will miss him, but not in a day to day way because he was not in my life in that way.  I will miss him b/c he was  part of my past and now those memories that we shared are gone.   May he rest in peace and may his soul be at rest.....a rest it may not have been able to find in this life.


Birdie said...

We all have feeling like this when someone dies. I think it is just part of grief.

Katherine Kilcullen said...

I feel the same way. I had no idea he was going to die. :(