Sunday night and I am sitting just waiting. It's like when you are going on a trip and you are waiting for the flight to leave. I am one of those that always arrives way too early and then sits and anxiously waits for things to get moving. Well, it's not much different now. There is something to be said for the 'old' days where they made you go to the hospital the night before. Then you were there, they gave you good sleeping pills and just rolled you out in the morning. Now, don't get me wrong, the shaving thing was no fun and I am glad it has gone the same way as bloodletting, but at least I would be there and maybe even unconscious!!!!!
So, I sit and wait. May even drink a coffee before midnight cause if I don't sleep tonight I will make up for it tomorrow....not like I need to have my wits about me :)
I have to say that among the various thoughts and feelings that I have been having over the past few days I am also feeling extremely humbled and overwhelmed (in a good way). The people who have called, dropped in, send texts, e-mails, cards .....offered prayers, rosaries and Masses, offered to look after pets and taken them in has been incredible. Never have I felt so tightly held by so many wonderful friends and family. It is the most amazing feeling to know that to so many you are important. If we could all feel this all the time what a wonderful world we would live in. To be held up in prayer and good thoughts and so many offering best wishes and good luck......
It's so nice to know that I am loved!
I am anxious for tomorrow, I would be crazy not to be, but I am also very much at peace. I feel that no matter what happens 'all will be well'. There is no better place to be at a time like this.
To each and every person who has thought of me, prayed for me and offered help, food and support of every kind I thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. For my daughter to see this gives her incredible hope and peace as well. You have blessed us in ways that you will never know, but you have changed me at my very being in ways that I cannot express.
Tomorrow is out of my hands.....but I know that I am in God's hands through the people in my life and that is a wonderful feeling......see you on the other side of surgery :)