So again last night I was uplifted by spending time with an amazing group of strong, beautiful women who love to laugh, eat and drink good food, and talk about many many things. I learnt some very interesting things listening to the talk. One of the things I learnt was how differently I look at the world. Whether this is because of the experiences I have had I will never know but it was very thought provoking nonetheless.
I have come to be so happy to be here living and experiencing life that I don't spend much time looking at my aging process as a negative. Now don't get me wrong, I too look into the mirror and wonder who it is looking back at me. My brain tells me I still look 18 but my body argues the point silently!!!! I just don't really want to change anything. I see nothing wrong with people making decisions about how they want to deal with the ravages of age, the wrinkles (character lines as some call them) etc., because esp in our day that is important. It just doesn't register for me on any scale. I listened with fascination to my friends talk about stuff that I probably have never really seriously given any thought to. I was so interested in hearing how they felt, what they thought they should do, and even what is actually involved in all the products and procedures available. I must say, some I am not interested in and never would do in a million years, but it was fun listening.
I have reflected on how I felt about this and I have come up with this understanding. I think I have had so many things done to my body against my will, so many changes that were made because I had to, that having the choice not to do anything else is important to me. It is very interesting how we all see things based on what we have lived through. I just couldn't imagine doing anything, putting anything, or cutting anything, simply for cosmetic purposes, although I totally understand the reasons for it. I just don't want to see any kind of doctor (especially another specialist) no matter what it is for....I have seen enough over the past 10 years that I could go the rest of my life and not see one and I still wouldn't have enough time to make up for it.
So, as I participate in this life, I am continually amazed how much my own experiences (esp my cancer ones) have given me my very own unique take on life and how it unfolds. Don't be fooled though, I was just as intrigued as anyone else to listen to the details of various procedures that are available today to make us look and feel the best we can. These women are so confident and successful that anything they choose to do would simply be for their benefit and how they feel and not for anyone else.....that is the difference when it comes to making these decisions.....
......I just sat, listened and had another glass of wine.....oh life is good!