Tired....bone tired!

Tired, impatient, angry, .....I hate it when I feel these feelings.   I know that something is going on b/c there are times lately when it seems that I just can't cope.   Those are times when I seem so tired, I have hit a wall.  Fatigue is so prevalent with this disease, it is like the body just can't deal with the usual day to day living.  I am so tired these days....that is all though just tired.  Bone tired!

I remember a day, before this all started, when my energy levels would soar during a trip to the East Coast.  I would be on the go all the time and loving every minute of it.  This trip, I just seem too tired to really do anything.  If I am not with my Mom I seem to just lie around and read....I haven't even been knitting lately b/c that seems to take too much concentration.   I know that stuff must be going on inside or else I wouldn't be so tired.   Other than that I feel fine....no pain, bowels are fine, etc.   If you haven't had a chronic disease I don't think you can understand the type of fatigue I am talking about.  Not just a tired from being too busy, or tired from not getting enough sleep, but more of a tired that seems to enter at a deeper level, like at the soul.  Maybe it is a more emotional as well as physical tired.    Whatever it is, it sucks.    So, off I go for a nap, and the thought of having to even go into the city to look at yarn doesn't temp me......maybe it is the weather too......fog and rain......way to heavy to carry around....