I am so confused...too much going on and not enough down time. I performed a wedding this week...well sort of. It was an emergency wedding b/c the bride's mother had just been diagnosed with cancer and was given only days. So, it was in the hospital chapel and it was just like a real wedding. She was dressed in white, there were bouquets, and family....it was all so strange. The reason is that it wasn't a legal wedding b/c there was no license, it being a weekend and all. The family was happy, the mothers seemed very pleased and so in the end 'who cares'? ... Life just seems so full of interesting turns. I was very pleased and even privileged to be a part of it. I received the call at 11:00 a.m. while shopping with my daughter. I arrived at the hospital at 3:30 for the 4:00 wedding. There was a time in my life that I couldn't imagine that I would have the temperament to pull that off, but it just seemed so doable and I didn't even stress. My daughter and I had planned to go to lunch, so we still did.
The confusion comes in when I try to make sense of what is going on in my life right now. I have always believed that we live our lives in 'themes'. I believe that God speaks to us through the events and people that are placed in our lives at any given time. Over the past few weeks, I have been involved in so many different things, with so many different people, I wonder what it is I am suppose to be coming to understand. In some ways I would say maybe I am just being given opportunities to see the important parts of life......but so far I am missing the 'hatch' part. I know that could be due to the age I am at, although there are a few babies looming on the horizon, but not directly related to me. I have done many matches and some dispatches but not too many hatches. Although I did do one baptism at the beginning of the year. So, I think I may just have figured out what the theme is ........life, living, important moments!!!!!! Hmmmmm....in addition I have reconnected with family and that is also an important part of the living.....I guess I am being given the blessings of seeing what really is important in life. Even still having lunch with my daughter was important and I had the grace to know that. I don't think I am so confused anymore.......at least not for the moment :)